my name is travis l ness...let me tell you a little about myself im a 19 year old that graduate of the class of 09.. i live with my parents i have no job...i don't know what i want to do with my life.. i know follow your dreams right? well what dreams? i don't know what i want to do im not good at much nothing that will help me get a job make money any of that i wish i knew whats going to happen to me..i don't know whats wrong with me why i feel like this right now i just just do started crying randomly still am now i just don't know whats going to happen things in my life are freaking me out like whats going on money wise with my parents i know its bad..what am i good at? i cant really tell you i sucked at school mainly math cant remember what we where learned really to save my life i would fail....can someone tell me what im good at? same here i cant i feel like ill spend the rest of my life alone you know i hate it most guys are looking for sex im looking for love you know true love.. bet that sounds corny right? i just wish i knew what will become of me i ruined two friendships during my senior year at mainly the same time for the same FUCKING reason me and my big fucking mouth..if i could take it back i would telling this girl i liked her and her boyfriend was a friend of mine and well he read the message and was pissed at me needless to say he hates me i just stopped talking to her hoping that it would help Reggie not be SO mad at me well it failed big time. i wish i could go back and change it stop myself but i cant.. i don't know im told i should go to collage by my friend Ben's mom..right where am i going to get the money? im not taking out a loan.. what would i study? i don't know what i want to be what i want to do....well not all in my life is bad i have got some good friends Ben,David,Josh,Andi,Jake,Mike,Keith just to name some.. and i have a game that i paid for and im waiting for it to come out Left 4 Dead 2.. guess writing this helped but i still don't know whats going to happen in the future but maybe that's a good thing? you know one thing i do hope is that i find someone who ever she may be
sorry for the swearing and i don't care about the grammar its the internet for crying out loud i just typed what ever came to my head...besides never really know where to put all the stuff anyway......this is part of a side of me no one really ever sees